latest

i've been staying at home 4 the past fw days since my hols started..finally i can hv a gd rest after a hectic month struggling 4 my final...haha..guess sometimes i complain 2 much, can't b helped, it's my nature mayb..haha..went out shopping wit my coursemates n one of my buddy, spotted a dress but din buy, scared later i din wear n again waste....sent my roomate home on the same day at nite..really 10s 2 ah ching, i've been worrying hw 2 fetch my coursemate to the bus station as i never drive b4 the only available car at home...thank god tat ah ching agreed 2 lend a helping hand...n we da bao supper at a mamak stall...received a fren's phone call...relieved as i've been wondering wat's up wit him suddenly disappear 4 fw days...luckily everything is fine...n again i'm the 1 who think 2 much

aunt n my cousin sis's family came...miss yen yen n jaden so much...n wei wei looks exactly like her sis..2 twin sis..haha..so cute, but never carry her b4 as she's scared of me, guess we hardly hav da chance 2 meet up n mayb she don even know who am i...went 2 cherok to'kun wit them n my fren who came 2 visit me...bumped into a uni fellow...haha..not considered a fren cz i dono who is him, just know his existence in the same uni as me n has smth smth 2 do wit my roomate...well, haha...secret...at nite, went 2 old town wit hwan n wei n peter...if i'm not mistaken,he's the son of my kindergarten's teacher, it's been 15 yrs we never meet each other ...wow...without realising it's already so many years n i still can recall his looks after i met him...haha..not much change except more chubby...n the 1st time i c ppl make their own cigarette...bersusah-payah dono 4 wat, just buy a packet from 7-eleven will do, but prefer 2 take the trouble..dono wat so special bout tat...mayb tat's smth tat a non-smoker wouldn't understand...haha

looking 4ward 4 my trip 2 kl..dono wat will it turn out 2 b...mixed feelings n excited...haven't meet my jie 4 so many yrs..can't really recall when we last met up wit each other...n my another fren, just exchange pics b4 n never really c each other in real life..wonder hw the meeting will turn out..haha..scared my perception will change, tat's very bad of me i know..well, don't dare 2 expect or think 2 much..scared i might feel disappointed as not being up 2 my expectation...just wait n c...hopefully everything will go on smoothly...

back home

finally the last 2 papers is over...shud feel relaxed n relieved,but then no feeling...i know tis time my result is goin 2 b very terrible, badly done but still put hopes on it...scared i will b very disappointed when the result is announced..sigh...since the day i went bck 2 campus 4 my last 2 papers, never really hav a good rest...oni slp 4 3 to 4 hrs a day n yet no afternoon nap...wonder how can i stand wit it 4 nearly a week....bt its finally over..now planning 4 the trip wit my coursemates n roomates...hopefully can make it...

hoping tat can go kl..wonder izzit ppl take it seriously when they say smth or izzit i'm the 1 who took everything seriously..hard 2 read ppl's mind...more over its not in the reality...realized tat when i'm hoping 4 smth, it won't b achieved...quite disappointed actually, tot there will b a slightly change in my life..but now back 2 normal again..mayb its better...at least i hav no worries, izzit tis tat i really want?...well, i don mind waiting n c if there's goin 2 b any progress...haha..let the time decide

time passes really fast..without realising...its the end of semester3...with the same roomates all tis while..hav a weird feeling when sending my roomate home yesterday...don like the feeling of separation...4 the past 2 semesters, i'm the 1st 1 who left the room n come 2 tis semester, finally i can understand the feeling of seeing every1 packing n go back home....don wish 2 change roomates 4 the next sem...really miss those moments when we laugh 2gether, sharing those small little secrets, hav pillow talk n all those crazy n 'sampat' stuffs tat we did 2gether, n in fact its really hard 2 find some1 who can tolerate as in every1 has their own habit n luckily the 4 of us manage 2 live in peace n harmony all tis while, muahahaha..n 1 thing we share in common is tat the 4 of us is the eldest among our siblings...not bad not bad...all big sisters...haha

wanted 2 hav a good rest tis fw days....yahooooo......

finally....

i'm back home at last, at least i can spend fw days here rather than staying at the stressful place 4 another 9 days before my next paper..haven't got a good rest since i went back my campus..as usual, stress cz of exam, guess tat my pmk tis sem will drop,since i don really satisfy wit my performance, not well prepared, last minute work again,hai...when oni i can change tis bad habit...luckily got my coursemate who is my best fren in uni guide me,if not i really will pass up blank paper...10s 2 her...really apppreciate it, n my roomate...she's there 4 me when i needed some1 most...i'm really very touched by their concern n care...n my 'so called koko' who willing 2 hear me bla the same thing everytime n tok noncense...n my another fren..dono hw 2 addressed him...really 10s 4 their support...love u all...just wake up from my afternoon nap..very warm,can't really hav a gd rest, plus my mind wanders about...hav 2 suffer tilll end of tis month...really very very tired...somtimes feel tat wats the point of exam? if we dono hw 2 apply the facts in our daily life,even wit straight a's oso pointless, sick of exam, hate hate hate...my bro just bought me a packet of wantan mee...haha...come back home will eat nonestop...wonder whether i still can take my dinner later...very full..ate a bowl of my fav food in the afternoon, home cooked laksa...lazy 2 study,but hav 2....gambatehhhhhh

fo0l3D

i tot i'm gonna b allrite, i tot it won't hav any impact on me,guess i'm wrong...y can't i just don't bother bout it since tis is not the 1st time it hurts my feelings...cz of tat i got insomnia...arghhhh,it shoudn't hav happened...its worthless for tis kind of person...mixed feelings rite now,feel like crying but just can't,makes me suffer more...plus my final is comin n tis thing distract my mind....wonder wat's goin 2 happen 2 me...sigh..

miserable

i'm confused...do i make the rite decision? did i hurt some1's feeling? i'm very lost..i don even know wat i 1...wat's happening? who else will understand me better other than me myself? no sense of direction..lost in nowhere...again silly mistake..keep on delecting the files in my assignment....double work 2 do...really get tensed up....don really hav a good rest tis few days...bothering and worrying..plus my final comin n yet i haven't start my revision...i'm gonna die soon...not coz of din study...is cz of stress and worries that keep bothering me....when can i enjoy the life wit no worries???

aS5igNm3Nt

i've been doin my assignment for these few days, wondering when will it complete..hai..dono hw 2 use ms frontpage really cham...spend hours there just 2 explore it....went 4 an outing yesterday n everything don seems 2 work on smoothly...my sandal spoilt n i get my mum into trouble when she's on the way 2 fetch me, don wanna elaborate more on tis...bought a skirt n some stationeries, tot of buying a shirt wit 70% discount but dihalang oleh my fren...haha, she says i spend 2 much on clothes but in the end, she bought more stuff than me and overbudget...well, tis thing is uncontrollable when something is just so tempting that we just need 2 buy it, but its a matter of self discipline...hav 2 learn hw 2 spend wisely....n i'm in the process of learning by keeping myself at home...n so ngam no transport, tat's y no choice but 2 stay at home...hai...wondering wat's the outside world looks like as i've been staying in the jungle a few months n come back but din go anywhere...n 1 thing so memalukan...i don even know that our 1st malaysian guy went up 2 the space till my cousin bro switch on the tv last wed nite when i visit them...guess i'm really far far being left out with the current issues happening around us...n baby yu heng is already 5 months plus...time really flies...when i last visit him was when he's just born n now he's 5 months plus d...n i'm getting older...

wAt's goIn oN???

i've broken my own record for goin 2 bed at 9pm, smth tats weird 4 me as i don used 2 sleep tat early...but it seems like it doesn't work at all...i've been tossing n turning in bed 4 the whole nite till i decided 2 gave up..n ended up infront of my blog...arggghh..wat's happening? izzit something bothering me?no asnwer...cz me myself oso dono wat's up wit me...my head is aching n seems like it's goin 2 burst..i've stayed up very late at nite since the day i came back from uni..tot i'll b getting a good rest when i come home..but ended up in front of the pc till middle of the nite...hav 2 change tis bad habit as not 2 get nag again from my mum n the doctor who attend 2 me everytime wit the same old sickness...hopefully i can sleep.......

m3m0rI3s

time flies so fast tat i don even realised i'm back home 4 5 days d, n yet i haven't complete my the only left assignment, ms frontpage...it seems easy 4 those who know it...but it's the opposite 4 me, the computer illiterate...while i'm searching photos 4 my assignment, found some old ones which i took wit my buddies...memories suddenly flash back...its been more than a decade ago,miss those moments when i'm wit them...we used 2 sing our own created barney's song...i love u, u love me, we r happy family, wit a great big hug n a kiss from me 2 u,won't u say u love me 2...well, life is like tat...as time passed, the feelings eventually will change 2...recently, i've been trying to catch things up which i've not been doing it for 2 yrs +...well, life continues...no matter how unwilling am i 2 accept the truth, but fact is fact...i know tat everything happens 4 a reason..perhaps its 4 a better change...well, think positvely, tat's all tat i can do