-2008-

its a beginning of another year again...wondering wat hav i achieved throughout last yr...i think i've been much more cheerful compared 2 last time...even my mum agreed wit tat,she's the who who says tat 2 me n she's very happy 2 c me leading a happy life again,well, mayb i don realised hw do my 2 yrs plus relationship hav shaped me into..happy n sad times, ups n downs, laughters and tears..its all past...i shouldn't hav mentionin it again perhaps...

went to autocity 4 countdown, the only most happening place around tat area,wat a pity,haha...my cousin met my ex there n she called me...but don hav the chance 2 meet up since my fren was finding a place 4 parking...fated, when i was walking around, i realised my eyes were wandering about, scared might bumped into him unexpectedly although i know he was there...but at last ended up wit disappointment or mayb its a good thing tat it didn't happen...deep down in my heart, i do know tat somehow it will happen someday where we might bumped into each other again..n tat time i can really tell tat whether i had let everything go or the other way round.. sometimes, memories do haunt me although it has been a year...4get bout it..

a fren from ipoh came 2 celebrate my advanced birthday wit me, but ended up the cake tat he bought for me was left in the fridge till the next day.. very bad of me as i refused 2 cut the cake,haha...lame excuse again..don wanna accept the fact tat i'm 1 year older again..sigh...so fast 22 yrs old d..age is catching up...10s 4 the flowers n rabbit, really very appreciate it..love it very much...n the rabbit even follow me bck 2 campus, don mistaken, haha..not the alive rabbit of cz, i still remember wat my grandma say..'pity the rabbit let u squeeze till like tat' haha...n 1 more thing...received the most special n extraordinary present from phoebe n jamie...haha, so sweet but i dare not wear it..hehe...celebrated my birthday at campus wit my roomates n coursemates...wish? don wanna mention it again...miracles? will it happen on me? mayb its a good thing tat everything has back 2 normal...n mayb its goin 2 b the start of another new life...can i considered as life? haha..dono hw 2 define it...

can't deny tat he really treats me good...mayb its just the beginning or mayb not..but i'm really finding myself very hard 2 commit n trust some1 again...the past hurt me badly..leaving me wit nth except those memories....i know its unfair 4 me 2 campare both of them, but it happens naturally..tat's very bad of me i know, even me myself oso imperfect...some will say tat y so fast wanna engage in another relationship again? don't u wanna enjoy ur single life 1st? y r u so eager of finding the other half? no comment..it happens just like tat..mayb tis is wat we call fate...i realise sometimes wat i 1 it won't turn out to b the exact thing tat i wish for...but i can c tat he's really trying very hard 2 please me...dare not make any conclusion tat early, as i've realised tat when things wanna change, it can just happen in a blink of eye, scary...i know it might hurt one's feelings, but...hope tat my instinct is correct...blur of not sure wat i want actually...words of comfort tat he gav n small little things tat he did touches my heart...10s 4 everything...very very appreciate it...suddenly recall wat my fren once sent me a meaningful sms 'when god takes smth away from ur hands, he is not punishing u but merely emptying ur hand 4 u 2 receive smth better'...suddenly words from my mum flash through my mind, i'll consider hard on it....hopefully i won't make the wrong decision again...can't afford 2 bear wit the consequences...time will proof everything..tis is wat i feel