don wanna leave

i've been emotinally disturbed lately due to certain thing n during my hols 4 1 month plus, it's like i've been on medication all the time...hw long should i suffer like tat? i received some news tat the person i knew has passed away recently n it's really freaking me out...i scared it will b my turn soon...wat should i do? hopefully everything is fine...many types of medic i had taken n singse n oso doctor i had see...hw come there has not been any positive sign? pls tell me wat 2 do... i'm really scared the worst might come true...i really don1 2 leave tis world so soon...there's so many things i haven't do...

plssssssss help.................

the truth revealed at last

the things tat r least expected will come 2 u unexpectedly, it's just a matter of time u c...i got to know smth which remain as a secret for him for the past 18 months i guess...i was totally heartbroken when i was informed bout it although it has got nth 2 do wit me nw...but y am i being treated like tis? izzit i deserved it? i'm tryin my very best 2 put everything a stop n start my new life...indeed i'm doin it rite nw