lost

jz finish class not long ago...don feel like going back 2 room n without realising, i bring myself to the lab...read bout phoebe's blog, guess i know wat's really goin on...ya, we don realise how much tat person mean to us till we loose them...tat's reality of life, i called them..in fact, we often remind ourselves to appreciate n treasure the person when you hv the chance, n yet we tend to do the other way round....i knew i hurt 'the person' alot, i've tried many times to control my unreasonale n unbearable outburst, but the outcome is still the same...do i really hav the heart to change or izzit i'm giving myself an excuse? i know very well tat i will be punished someday for what i had done...as a saying goes. tip for tap. i truly believe it as i had experienced it myself...dono wat shud i do......